If he could see her now....

This is Erin and Harper Richie, my cousin Steven's wife and only little girl. He was killed in a car wreck a year ago september 13. Erin was expecting w/ his first child when he passed away. Unfortunately i wasn't in as close contact w/ him as i should have been so his death was pretty tough to take. and i've been thinking about him a lot lately. i've become "friends" on facebook w/ his wife. I can not imagine having to live the rest of my life w/ out the love of my life. if you want to read more about him go to my blog archive...2008...then the entry in September about him.

Steven.

how unfair life can be. i have lost 2 special people in my life in the passed year. i still question why. why did the Lord take them.

David, Sue, Brian, and Ryder

Brian's mom passed away 4 months ago. her bday is thursday. i don't know if brian will want to go to the cemetary or not. don't know if i should even bring it up.

the last thing that Sue said to me before the evil cancer took her "mentally" away was this one sentence on Mother's Day...i was hugging her good-bye it was just us in her bedroom...(knowing i was gonna have another baby) she said, "you tell that baby i love her".

it's not fair.

We spent friday night and all day saturday on Britt Hill. Since SueSue's gone i get to be "woman of the house" when we go there. i must say i get angry. there's no candle burning filling up the house w/ it's goodness. there aren't any seasonal decor up unless i put it up. her and david were seperated for 2 yrs before they got back together. and unfortunately she was sick the entire 6 months she was "back" before the evil cancer took her from us. she got to put some of "her" back in the house but it's still kinda cluttered. i don't know if David gets upset w/ me or not when i rearrange things and clean up. but i do it anyway. i guess i'm being selfish. poor me. i have to clean and cook isn't that terrible (sarcasm). i used to just get to hang out and be spoiled...sue would take care of the kids and cook for us when we visited. i love to cook for my family but it's just that i miss her. the house misses her. we miss her.