We went to a high school graduation tonight and i looked over at my two kiddos....i want to see them graduate. maybe i'm looney tunes but i'm not ready for "Him" to come back. call me crazy. i want to see my kids learn to drive...have sweet 16 parties and proms and graduations and fist day of college and weddings. i want grandkids for golly sake.
call my crazy.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
I'm not ready.
Posted by Steph at 9:58 PM
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i don't think that's crazy...and i hope that it's not bad. but, we are human...that's what we are supposed to do...look forward to the future, etc. our minds can't totally grasp the awesomeness (in the day to day living) of actually giving all that up to go be with Jesus. i don't know...maybe that is wrong...and we should focus more on that and our kingdom perspective should be so that it includes that strong desire to go be with Him always.
but i have to say, the only people i've ever known to really live like that day to day, with that strong desire like that, were people who lost their child(ren).
i just think God knows us. He knows our hearts and our motivations. it's not like we are shunning Him...we just want to be able to see all the things wonderful things here that He has given us...in the here and now and the things in the future.
but, He also knows that if given just a tiny second to visit Him there, we'd never want to come back here...even to see our children grow up, get married, and have our grandchildren. he smiles at us and our finite minds...and understands.
so, all of that to say...no...you're not crazy. ;)
Girl, you are SO not crazy! I have those thoughts all the time! I just want to have kids! haha!
Hope things are going well!
I have always felt this way too. I'm at odds all the time because I hate sin and I hate this world many days. But I love my husband and my kids, and I love the purposes God gives to me on this earth. My main prayer is that my children will have the chance to choose Christ and to be saved. That's what I'm praying for.
Great words from Michawn and Amanda. Don't we have great friends?
You look adorable in your new 5 mo. pic. I'm so excited for you. You are blessed to be having your third child. : )
Had no idea Michawn had commented - but I wanted to tell you I have ALWAYS felt this way. I always wondered where it would end. You wanted to see them grow up, graduate from high school, graduate from college, get married, have children, then it starts over with the grandchildren. But I also knew God would know when and I wouldn't have to worry about that. So, you aren't crazy. Just normal feelings of a true mama. That mama instinct just never ends.
Love,
Nena
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